Hey. its been a while. lol. i dont have much to say, just that, i dont see the point anymore. why would you put up with peoples shit when you dont have to? i dont get it. there are all the same. theres no reason the be scared. why? i just...i dont understand.

My damn sister post the stupidest things. She annoys me!! and she stole my picture! her new pic is one of MY avatar.

Will she ever learn?

Today is the first day of summer break, yet I feel no happiness. Because of my current living situation, i have no way to see my friends on a regular basis. I'm stuck in this little house of hell while my friends can see eachother anytime they want because they are at most 15 minutes away from eachother. I wish i knew that when i was forced to move up here eveything would go to hell. I can't hang out with my friends anytime i want and its a constant struggle to keep a roof over our heads. I keep getting told that by moving to colorado it would give us a chance at a better future for ourselves, but we can't even afford to live on our own. *sigh*

My neice has a birthday party tomorrow. I have been cleaning all day and i'm so tired i can't even sleep. I'm nervous about tomorrow because Dakota is suposed to be coming :/ I'm afraid that it will be all akward (we just broke up yesterday) but miranda is coming so i hope it will turn out ok. My feelings still get all mixed up when people alk about me and Dakota. I almost cried when my sister asked what happend, its really all my fault though, i'm the one that got all upset when I heard that he was cheating on me with Tylar (My bestfriend!) I know Dakota and he would never do that to me. I have a special bond with him, so i can't help loving him. I was hanging out with him and Maria yesterday. I made a deal with my mom cuz it was the last day and all. I wanted to hang with my friends cuz i wasn't going to see them over the summer. My sister, who was also there kept refuring to him and me as Boyfriend and girlfriend, (this is after we broke up) it was strange. We were both a little uneasy about it. I really like him though so i hope the little sparks can survive though the summer. I want to be with him. Not with anyone else.

Thats what has been on my mind lately. I had to express it somehow. Anyways that it so goodbye!